Depressing Saturday
Today I wish I was the little girl, the little girl back home in Sweden, the girl who was one in her class of Heroes, the busy girl who could never get into hard situations. I wish I was working with E and hanging out with Linn. I guess this might be one of my very few bad days in almost seven months now and maybe my first feeling of homesickness.
At the same time I have never enjoyed and loved my life over here so much as I do now, except the thing which is bugging me for the moment. I live such a simple life, in a family who loves me, I get a lot of credit for the work I do and everything is just perfect. At the same time everything is starting to feel so everyday-the-same, even if everyday really is special. I can't complain on anything. I have very sweet friends here, I go exercising, I travel, I eat out at great different restaurants all the time, I study, I learn, I teach, I chill, I go shopping - I don't know what I miss! Love?
Somehow things here has also lost the special feeling. Like Mathilda (from the LivingLA-team (http://livingla.blogg.se)) wrote about a feeling of being in a movie during her first time here I felt about the same. Now we have to remind ourselves about being in a big house, hang out in Beverly Hills during our sparetime, workout in Hollywood, be able to ride the bicycle to the Oscar Awards tomorrow, have the gardeners, house keepers and whatever around you 24/7. We have got used to this life. I miss the woods back home, the clean nature, Rudolf and Mirri, Stockholms nightlife and the Swedish guys. My relatives. Even my relationship to my family has really become stronger for everyday being here and now I know who are my real friends back home. It's not bullshit that previous au-pairs are talking about how much they've realized and learned about themselves and others when being away for a year.
I do not want to leave LA, at the same time I want to be in Stockholm and I want to go to Helsinki straight away for starting my medical studies. What is my home? I guess I will be (like last year) excited to go home - but when I come home it will take sooo long to adjust. I will miss LA so much and to live in my family is not like having them here for only two weeks. I'm happy I still have a few months to enjoy California and I will spend a week on Hawaii pretty soon to get away from my everyday life here. I need to relax - whatever that is, I thought that's the only thing I do.
Santa Monica Pier and beach known from for example Baywatch - closest coastal access for me
At the same time I have never enjoyed and loved my life over here so much as I do now, except the thing which is bugging me for the moment. I live such a simple life, in a family who loves me, I get a lot of credit for the work I do and everything is just perfect. At the same time everything is starting to feel so everyday-the-same, even if everyday really is special. I can't complain on anything. I have very sweet friends here, I go exercising, I travel, I eat out at great different restaurants all the time, I study, I learn, I teach, I chill, I go shopping - I don't know what I miss! Love?
Somehow things here has also lost the special feeling. Like Mathilda (from the LivingLA-team (http://livingla.blogg.se)) wrote about a feeling of being in a movie during her first time here I felt about the same. Now we have to remind ourselves about being in a big house, hang out in Beverly Hills during our sparetime, workout in Hollywood, be able to ride the bicycle to the Oscar Awards tomorrow, have the gardeners, house keepers and whatever around you 24/7. We have got used to this life. I miss the woods back home, the clean nature, Rudolf and Mirri, Stockholms nightlife and the Swedish guys. My relatives. Even my relationship to my family has really become stronger for everyday being here and now I know who are my real friends back home. It's not bullshit that previous au-pairs are talking about how much they've realized and learned about themselves and others when being away for a year.
I do not want to leave LA, at the same time I want to be in Stockholm and I want to go to Helsinki straight away for starting my medical studies. What is my home? I guess I will be (like last year) excited to go home - but when I come home it will take sooo long to adjust. I will miss LA so much and to live in my family is not like having them here for only two weeks. I'm happy I still have a few months to enjoy California and I will spend a week on Hawaii pretty soon to get away from my everyday life here. I need to relax - whatever that is, I thought that's the only thing I do.
Santa Monica Pier and beach known from for example Baywatch - closest coastal access for me
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